random ramblings!

i promised myself that i wouldn't eat anything else to day but...

i totally binged.

i had rice with fish and some veggies, and as well as 5 cookies,
idk what's gotten into me lately. i just can't control myself anymore.

and then i purged.



so yea. welcome back to my life, b/p.

after 4 long months i haven't seen or heard from you,
and now you've turned up unexpectedly.


what can i say? i'm a weak bitch.

cw: still at 116
gw: 110 by 07.31.08 (which is my birthday!)

hopefully from now on i'll stay strong and reach my gw#1 by then.
[exercise exercise exercise!@#$]

i need help! desperately!

went to bed so late last night, again i felt so tired in front of my laptop.
but as soon as i headed to my bed i was wide awake.

sometimes i have trouble staying asleep, and only managed to sleep for 4 hours last night.
which, to me, is quite a reasonable number bc the other day i closed my eyes for only 2.

this morning i felt weak, sick to my stomach. my body was crying out for sugar!

anything sweet!

and i satisfied myself wayyy too much. i had porridge and 1/4 of an egg, and some cantaloupe.
and as well as 2 oreo cookies.

yuck.

so im not going to eat anything else today, and will start working out in the afternoon.
hopefully i wont over do it like last night, but its something i really cant help!

will now go make some yummy yummy green tea!